I am leaving in a little while to drive up and spend a few days with my mom and sisters. I have been telling her that I want to come up and "visit" with her now that I am no longer working. My sister that keeps an eye on things up there and I agreed that this would be the least stressful way for me to go up and spend a few days checking out how they are getting along.
I realize that it is difficult for any child to take care of an aging parent, and it is even tougher when that parent has alzheimer's . My sisters who live with mom are doing the best they can to keep things on a steady course, but with mom you just never know.
I have to see for myself how things are going because we need to make those difficult decisions in the next year or so about nursing home care. I am terrified about having to decide that for mom.
So, I am packing my suitcase, and loading up my car and I even bought a blow up bed so that no one is put out and I don't have to sleep on a couch. I mean to put as little stress on their daily routine as I possibly can, but I also intend to see about getting mom into a routine of doing a bit more than sitting in front of the television all day.
I am also going to try to make contact with my spiritual director who happens to be mom's pastor while I am in town. Even if all I do is talk to him on the phone and make an appointment for my next visit it will be a good thing. I am ready now to move on from my working life to whatever the next challenge is. I will definitely need his guidance to avoid the pitfalls as I try to discern God's plan in where my future lies.
So, blogging may be light for the next few days. They do have a computer up there, but mom doesn't like for anyone to be on it while she is awake. I may try to log on in the evenings and blog a bit.
Keep me in your prayers.