I am still here taking care of mom. I am having some limited success getting her to do her daily bathing and care -- moreso than my sister who has been taking care of her and my sister who was staying here earlier in the week. I haven't really spent an evening here when she has been in full blown sundowning all by myself though.
For the past two days we have been taking advantage of the nice weather and taking a walk each day, something elese that my sister that has been living with her hasn't been doing (because of a weight/health issue on my sister's part more than any other reason). Mom has enjoyed the walk.
Mom is much more confused, but we have gotten along really well. I really don't want to put her in nursing care, but I suppose if she is this confused about where she is, to the point of not really knowing where she is, or continually asking when she will be going home, perhaps it is the right time to move her.
I know that in my work in the parish I visited enough nursing homes to know that I don't want my mother to be one of those people who are tied to their beds because the staff doesn't want them wandering around, or who is drugged up all the time to keep them docile.
I am praying and trying to listen for the voice of God so that I know that I am making the right choice for mom.
Keep praying for me.