Stop Banging on the Closed Door

I found out a piece of sad news over the last few days. I had applied for a job with Catholic Charities and without even bothering to interview me, or giving me the common courtesy of a call or email to inform me that I didn't meet their requirements for the job I found out through the grapevine that they had hired someone else.

And to add insult to injury, Fr tried to introduce me to the woman who was hired in the position today. Of course he had no idea that I had applied for the job, as he has no idea that while I am waiting to find out if the job at the parish will pan out I am actively seeking other employment.

I just wasn't up to making small talk with the woman who got the job I had wanted. I am sure that in the future I will be in a better place, but there is still such a bitter taste in my mouth about the entire affair. The most charitable thing they could have done was to at least inform me that I wasn't what they were looking for, and thank me for applying. To just say nothing at all smacks of being so totally rude, especially for an organization with the name Catholic Charities.

I have to believe that this is God's will, and that if that door is closed then there will be another one that will open, or that perhaps things will turn around at the parish and the job will work out so that I will be able to stay there. I still don't know what is going to happen with the position there when they combine the two parishes and DRE/Youth Ministry positions. I am still waiting and praying.

All in all I had had a really stressful day all around, compounded by being confronted with a door being closed to me, and some other frustrating situations at work as well, and being overly clumsy and falling down the stairs (only the last few, but it was enough to really hurt my dignity).

I came home this evening feeling very blue, and humbled, and wishing for at least a little ray of hope to brighten my day. Looks pretty overcast, I guess I am going to feel like eeyeore a little longer.

Pax