We are so immersed in the Microwave generation it is really hard for us to think in the long term anymore. So when healing takes a long time it can be really hard to be a patient patient. I am in the middle of a long slow healing process, and I am running low on patience. I want to be back to normal now. Each time I go to the Dr. I get good news, but even that isn't enough. I want a microwave healing instead of a crock pot healing.
As I was thinking about this the other day I remembered a story one of my spiritual directors told me about St. Therese the Little Flower. She was very impatient for something to happen and her spiritual director told her that you can empty a vase by turning it over and dumping out the water or you can empty the water by dropping in one tiny pebble after the other. Each tiny pebble displaces a bit of the water, and eventually after enough pebbles have been dropped into the vase the water will all be gone, and in its place will be thousands of tiny pebbles. God works in both ways; sometimes God chooses the latter way because it is more compassionate. We need the time that it takes with each pebble drop to adjust to the change in water level.
So the slow and steady upward trend of my healing is just fine by me because God's timing, while it may not be my ideal choice, is perfect. I would love to be healthy tomorrow, but there is much I can learn as I wait; patience, cooperation, determination, courage, strength and an appreciation for how fearfully, wonderfully I am made.