Wednesday, September 15, 2010

My Thoughts on Recent Events in My Life

 I haven't written a blog post in a month. In that month a lot has happened.  On August 23rd, my mother slipped from her earthly prison and went to be with dad forever.  I am still trying to fathom all of the subtleties of what it means that I have become an orphan.   It helps to think that mom and dad are together again, both here and in heaven: their earthly remains are united forever in a shared grave with one headstone -- mom's info will be Carved on the back with the phrase: Loving parents together forever.

We also began the tedious job of repainting the inside of our house,something we hadn't done since we moved here in 1997. I know my limitations, so we have someone else doing the actual painting. I just get to choose the colors. Mranglmeg is a bit scared though, because all those white walls are disappearing under a much more vibrant color palate. In the cans he just shakes his head, but once the color goes up on the wall he begins to see my vision or at least is resigned to let me choose because it just doesn't matter to him.

My new career as a spiritual director is beginning to gain ground. I have been seeing new prospective directees and growing my "client base" by leaps in the past month. With each new contact I am humbled at the special place my work takes me in people's lives.  I hope that I can always remember that it is the Holy Spirit that is the true director, and I am in the sacred position of being the eyes and ears and voice to help those who come to me see how The Spirit is moving in their lives.

I haven't had much time for writing, considering the month I have had, but I do have ideas for two new projects I want to start as soon as I get some other things off of my "clipboard of fun.  One is directly related to losing my mother, and a statement that a dear friend from my Spiritual Direction Internship made that five of us from this class had all lost our mothers this calendar year.

I also haven't had much time to knit, and I have a few projects backed up.  I think I need to set aside some time to knit each day because knitting keeps me grounded and helps me clear my mind.  It is such a spiritual practice for me.  Going without it is like going without my evening prayers.

I am taking a much needed trip to St. Meinrad weekend after next for a short mini-retreat.  I just want to get away and lose myself on "The Holy Hill" and find my center again.  Maybe I will even get to run into a few friends as well.

Hopefully, now that things are a bit back to normal I will be able to blog on a slightly more regular basis.



Ebeth said...

Dear Angelmeg, My heart goes out to you. You have so much more insight than probably many in this walk of life you are in now.

Thank you for continuing to be there for us, I may not visit you regularly, but I have you blogrolled for anyone's convenience.

Blessings to you and I do look forward to your direction. I have been looking for a spiritual director for years. I have found a person who has not been trained, per se, but is a Master Catechist and is striving for holiness and wants to help me discern my life at times as best as the Holy Spirit guides him.

Blessings to you!

Unknown said...

So glad you have found someone to help you discern. Having been through the training (which was very intense at times and took two years) I now realize how important it is to have people who have been trained in this ministry out there to guide people on their path of holiness.

I learned so very much over the two years and am still learning and through continuing supervision will always be growing in my ministry.

I appreciate your prayers.

Mike Keucher said...

Know of my prayers for you. Hope to see you when you visit here. What a perfect place to come to in order to center oneself. I try to do just that here every day.

Rosemary said...

So sorry to hear of the loss of your mother. It's such a blow to lose one's mother. And the whole feeling of now being an orphan is very strange. I am one too. Blessings.